The lightest of touches never being able to feel the porcelain (or in my case, plastic) keys beneath your fingertips.
Your voice slowly quieting until it can no longer peep a sound; there are no more tunes that can escape.
Your brain has a mishap and is unable to form proper words, sentences, thoughts, and in turn, you are never able to imagine anything again; you're simply being told of what is, what was, and what will be because your body is incapable of creating anymore.
What if you are in a terrible accident leaving you without legs. That means no more dancing, let alone walking on your own.
Or if you lose both of your arms, how could one paint, or write, or drive, or feed themselves; do things on their own?
If you woke up one day with your memory to sew wiped clean and you have no idea how to do the things you really want to do: I want to make that dress like the one I made before, but unfortunately, I can't remember how to do any of the things I need to.
If you went blind...a sa
...How could you read the books you love? How would you feel being left with only your memories behind your eyelids?
No more...
...swimming,
...running,
...scoring,
...driving,
...throwing,
...writing,
...playing an instrument,
...cooking,
...video games,
...drawing or painting,
...creating,
...imagining.
Have you ever thought about what it is you do that makes you absolutely happy because you just love to do it so much?
Have you ever thought about what you would do if those things were taken from you?
People have gone through these things; they know and can relate to all of this.
Or even a step further: What if you couldn't love who you wanted to? What if there were people making up rules to say you can only love a certain kind of people and if you stray from their ways, you'll be punished?
There are people like that. There are people who are told this. There are those people that make those rules.
Or even worse: What if you you didn't have any control over your own body?
What if you couldn't pee, eat, bathe, etc. until someone told you to do those things?
What if you couldn't pee, eat, bathe, etc. until someone told you to do those things?
If you were told to use your body a certain way, even if it hurts, even if you're not expected to live through the pounding? What if you were raped repeatedly, over and over again, because someone else was in charge of what you did or did not do with your own body?
If you lost your mind or your body, as many in the past and present have...
How would you make sure that you survive?
Would you hold onto the hope of someone you love?
Love has been taken from you; you're not allowed to feel it.
Pray for a savior?
Your hopes and dreams have been crushed. You're all alone and there's nothing you will ever be able to do about it.
Try to fight?
That fist you just used to punch back with has been chopped off. Learning lessons is hard in a tough world.
Wait for death?
But you're replaceable and you wouldn't have achieved anything; nothing would've been stopped; people are still suffering.
OH GOOD!
You're not one of those people being told that you're going to hell, that there is no paradise for you.
Oh, you're not one of the sex slaves in a far off country.
Alright, you're not one of the ones who have acquired brain damage, or okay cool, you weren't in a dreadful accident leaving you blind, burned, limbless, etc.
Good for you! That means you don't have to care or worry about those people, then.
Those people whose bodies and minds are turning on themselves and attacking them--oh that's no you?
Okay, phew! Move right along then, don't worry.
To lose the very thing you love most...
To lose the very person you love most...
To lose everything that makes you who you are...
...well those are just things. Who are you without those things?
Who are you without the people and things you love most?
Are you strong enough to remember? Strong enough to forget?
Strong enough to find out? Strong enough to end your life over it?
Don't worry. There is a strong chance that you will never have to find out in your lifetimes.
But people in the past have. People right now are figuring this out. People in the future will have to decide.
If you have the chance, the ability, the freedom to love whomever, to do anything that makes you happy, and to spend your everyday doing whatever you do so desire...
Then do not waste time and energy. Do not second guess yourself. Do not wonder about the "What ifs" of the things you already have or could reach out and achieve...
You have no idea how truly lucky you are...if you hesitate.
Let the emergency brake of you life be broken away and allow yourself to be, to do, to see, to love, to smile, to laugh, to live.
13:20.
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