Dear New Girlfriends (I think)

I.
Am Not.
Interested.
In your boyfriends.
Why?
Because they are my friends.
Furthermore, they are my brothers; yeah, they're family to me. And they mean So Goddamn much to me.
So, does it completely break my heart when they no longer reply or even look at my messages, let alone invite me to any of the stuff you all do together?
100%.
I haven't hung out with a group of girls since high school. In fact,I've been hanging out these guys instead because they are just as adventurous and supportive as I try to be. They are amazing dudes, each and every single one of them.

If allllllllllll of your super close friends either moved out of state and/or started relationships to where you are just ...left out of the picture and never included in things anymore? How would you feel?

Yeah..You'd feel worthless, and shattered, and very, very lonely.

And yeah, I've moved 15 times, so yes, I do know how to make new friends.
But that isn't the point. The point is that I wish to keep my family a part of my life, through thick and thin. So stop being jealous and controlling. I'm not going to try and do anything; besides, you should trust them and believe in yourself enough to know that they are crazy about you if they call you their girlfriend.

And if for some reason, it isn't because of you Girlfriends..

Then my deepest apologies.

I must be very confused about something because NO ONE WILL EXPLAIN WHY THEY ARE IGNORING ME! :'( </3

I'll write more later about other stuff.

20:16.

PS:

When people reach a breaking point..one of two things happen.
1) People fall apart, completely and utterly shattered, not knowing where to go, who to be, or what to do with themselves.
2) People get up, brush themselves off of all the hurt and pain, and move on.

I don't want to move on again after having moved on time and time again...But it's starting to look like I'll have to.

Thinking more about this a few minutes later, I realized that if the boiz cared enough about me at all, they'd come to their senses and remember to be a good friend. But...just like all things in life, there's a chance that they don't care. Not anymore. And I'm not sure what I did or said or what they did or decided that changed how our friendship was viewed...but if this was the case..then I'd at least like to know why. That way I can move on without feeling extremely hurt and left behind.

:(

I'll still post more later. 20:22.