False alarm.

No sleeping yet. (Obviously, I'm babysitting still) I told the kiddos that I would be downstairs watching Gilmore Girl on Netflix, (and trust me, I WILL get to that!)

But right now, I needed to get this off my chest:


   It is times like these where I am by myself, thinking about my life, my achievements, where I've been, how I got here, and how happy I am, and then I remember that I am unable to share any of this with you. There are certain people in my life that know my heart better, my mind, my thoughts, my soul, who act as my conscience, who share the same dreams as me.....

When I think of my conscience, I think of two people: J1 and my mother.
When I think of my thoughts (as in what I would actually say), I think of two people: E and Jay
When I think of my mind, I think of two people: R and Lauren
When I think about my heart and what it would say, I think of these two people helping me understand it: D and You.
When I think of my soul, I know that these two people understand mine: J2 and Shelby.
And when I think of my future dreams and life goals, I think of K2 and N.

When I am making a tough, tough decision, I picture all of these people sitting around in a circle with me and representing these parts of me.

And you, YOU..............You represent my heart. Should you ever read this, maybe you'll understand that I could never give you up even if you could with me. You are not only a representative of my heart, You Are My Heart. And I wouldn't have it any other way.

I love you. I miss you. I just wish you'd wake up and see the big picture. Come back to me, K. </3

21:45.