2015 IS HERE! ...and then 3 days.

From this point on, I will use this as a "DEAR DIARY" sort of thing. Someone told me that with my busy lifestyle and ambitions, I should write about my daily adventures. So where I may end up combining a couple days to a week (or two) in one post, my goal is to get everything written down here.

Therefore, today is 3rd January 2015 (yes, I got it right this time!), and I'll start with two days ago.

1st January 2015: I did not party last night with all of my friends, nor with my family. Instead I made time and a half babysitting for 8 hours. So with $240 extra money in my pocket, I made it home by 4:30 (I use a 24-hour time) and slept in all day and watched television with my mother and sister. Some piano was involved in my day, but not too much. Also, I hugged both of my parents individually while they were bawling...but they're okay and not arguing anymore. Lesson is, don't smoke cigarettes, because if you decide to quit, tensions will be high. Lastly, I wrote to Kyle again. I heard from him 18 days after he left for boot camp, and I wrote back immediately, but I haven't heard from him since and it's been a month. :/ I miss him but he'll be back in a month and a half!

2nd January 2015: Working at a chocolate store is fun. People 99% of the time walk out happy, and with chocolate! And then I helped my friend Nuri, who is basically a brother to me, I helped him pick gifts out for his girlfriend at Victoria Secret. It was So Funny. And then I finally had my New Year's celebration with my friend Eduard. Some other of his friends were over and we and his parents all had dinner. Eddie and I had drink for drink, and I most definitely got drunk. Almost had to sleep there, but I sobered enough to think I was capable of driving. I did, and I made it home safe, but it is not something I will ever do again and it is not something I will ever condone. Think and always be safe, people!

3rd January 2015: I woke up shaky, like I could still feel all the sugar from the wine coursing through my veins. I did not sleep very well, either. Bad decisions. Bad bad bad. I watched Friends (NOW ON NETFLIX, YESSS) with my mother and sister. I also came to a realization that I am not the only one who feels we are all lost on this world. I like the idea that we come from the universe and that we are made of pieces of the universe. My opinion is that everyone and everything is made up of universe dust and particles. We are just as much a part of the universe as what we see out there. We just have sooooo sooooo soooo much to learn or remember. Dangerous waters. You never know someone's real opinion, and I get pretty deep and philosophical....some would see it as crazy, but me.......I just think there's more to all of our lives than what is here. We are so focused on our individual desires and needs that we don't see or even realize that there is a bigger picture.

I had a vocal student lesson today. Henrietta Lizette Bowman (fake name) is 11 and an amazing singer. She is very funny and very passionate about having fun while singing. She's even auditioning for America's Got Talent on Valentine's Day this year. I went and saw her perform tonight and she was great!

I got a free latte from a chick named Angel who worked at the cafe;..who I, in an intoxicated mindset, made out with at one point a year ago.

I came home to find my parents watching a movie about a woman who, after having her first child, was unable to carry out a complete pregnancy and birth to a living child. It was while watching this that I remembered a passing thought of something I feared. One of my few fears is that of not being able to get pregnant someday, when the time is right, or never being able to carry to term and miscarrying repeatedly. I do believe that that is one of the reasons I would love to be married and have a child before I'm 30. Sooner or later, time will only bring lessons; all in good time. But when that time does arrive, I will be overjoyed and happy, I know. 

But for now, it is time for bed, and I have a 6 hour shift tomorrow working at Chuao Chocolatier in Encinitas, California. And I know, my heart is so frustrating, but before I actually fall asleep, I will think about Kyle some more in hopes that I will get to see him in my dreams, because I really do miss him. When it comes to my heart, I really am such a girl. Iiiiiiiit's embarrassing. Notice how the word embarrassing has the word ass in it, because you could also end up making an ass of yourself while embarrassing yourself...Nah I made that up.

Good night. 23:59. ;)