1.5

1.5 weeks, I am terrible.

Within all of this time, I have taken several pictures of Fleuris. I have had Fleuris get used to me; he/she (I'll reference to both "he" and "she" until I know) likes to curl around my neck and climb through my hair. At one point, Fleuris even curled around my bun and wouldn't let go. I ate my dinner and cleaned the apartment with her sitting there. I'll post pictures soon.

I have been working and working and studying and sleeping and rinse, and repeat.

Plus I've been spending a lot of time with Dylan. I don't think we've gone 24 hours since Jan. 31 without seeing each other. So today until tomorrow, for 24 hours, we will NOT make up excuses to see each other or accidentally bump into each other. Because we keep doing that. Eek oops.

Roomie and I and our apartment sprayed for ants and spiders. I still find one or two her and there, but nothing like before.

I am always up and out and busy, up and out and busy, up and out, and busy, busy, busy.
So I think for the rest of this week, I will relax. Yes. I don't have work at the chocolate store until Sunday, so aside from my 2 classes this week and my musical students...I will come HOME to MY HOME and relax to the best of my ability.

Tonight, a group of us (not Dylan, he's not invited, that way the 24-hours thing holds) are going to Vital to climb. I haven't been in TOO :LONG and I seriously need to get back into a regular schedule of going. How about Tuesday nights and Sunday nights or Monday mornings and Wednesday mornings, for starters.

I went to Kyle's graduation, and I feel like one of the biggest idiots. Regardless of what I may have said in previous posts, I know that we have nothing left except possibly a friendship, that is, if he ever stops ignoring me. He's still in love with his ex, which is very clearly obvious, which makes me wonder what he was ever doing with me and how I could have ever meant anything. I think for the time we had, it was good, but that time was up while he was away. He gave up which told me to give up. On him, at least. Which, honestly, and for multiple reasons, is for the better. If he ever stops ignoring me because he's scared of what he thinks I'll say, then I know we'll be better as friends as we had been before. I was happy before he became more as a friend. I was happy when he did. I was happy when he left. And I was still happy when he told me that we should just be friends. He told me that at the New Year, though I think we both know that as soon as he hugged me goodbye that Sunday back in early November, that's when he had planned on everything ending. And I was still happy when he came back.

Two reasons. 1) I don't hold onto emotions or "what ifs". I cut them, like two boats at sea, cutting the tether between the two. You may still be able to see each other every now and then, but the rope to emotions and the heart...snip! I've always been like that. 2) I am happy with my life as if I were all by myself. Luckily, I'm not; I have family and friends and pets. But I am happy with my school, I am happy with my jobs, I am happy with where I moved, and I'm happy with how I spend my time. I. Am. Happy. All on my own. I don't lean or depend on others in order to make myself smile or feel excited.

So when the end of January rolled around and Dylan lived right down the road to invite me to hang out with him and his friends and chill a bunch, this very familiar stranger turned into who I've spent so much time with this past 17 days straight. The smallest things go noticed, the stupidest of things get laughed at, and I don't feel like I have to prove myself to be better. I'm liked for who I am; just for being me, I am enough.

Here are the pics of Fleuris. :)

1 Week. And now.

What significance "one week" has.

It's been one week since I stopped blogging, but not on purpose.
And it's one week until I am left feeling absolutely ridiculous about my feelings.

Also in one week, I'll be taking my little sister to the Rocky Horror Picture Show.

And then I am working on Valentine's Day. I'm not a participant of Valentine's Day, mainly because I'd rather give/receive gifts and shared emotions on a day that it isn't expected. I don't like expectations, but I do love spontaneity and surprises.

This past week has been one of very much socializing. New people, new ideas.

AND! I'm going to go get my snake today. I found her/him. She is a ball python, lightly colored with what looks like a flower on the top of her head and coal black eyes.
That flower earned the name Fleuris.

I will shower and and head over to Petco to pick Fleuris up and then do some homework and cleaning and then head to work, stop by to get the snake home for the snake, and then voila. Evening made better and perfect. The snake will live atop my dresser. :)
But right now: Agent Carter! Oh yeessshhh :)

Tuesday Wednesday Thursday

Um.

27 Tuesday 2015:
I............................Oh yeah! So my new friend Sean and I played tourist of Balboa Park on Tuesday morning. We did this because we were on the search for "The Architecture of San Diego" and I thought that around those parts was a good place to look. Obviously there were plenty more in Downtown, but we got a pretty good list from Coronado Bridge and Balboa Park.

I made it home before I had to leave to teach. And I basically taught for the remainder of my day.

Once that was over, I had some time to kill before going to babysit. So of course I called on my dear pal FishBoy to see if he'd accompany to dinner so we could catch up. We did and things are gooooooood.
Babysitting was a pleasant enough of a night. I finished watching the kids movie after the kids went to bed. Pretty solid game-plan for babysitting.

28 Wednesday 2015:
I had Psych and then I had lessons to teach. After the lessons I went and visited my family. (I didn't have to b at babysitting until later) I had dinner and caught up with my mom. My dad played video games and that lulled me into a good hour or so nap before my little sister came home and it was time for me to leave.

Babysitting was.........Same. But I think I watched Gilmore Girls on my phone. ;) :P

29 Thursday 2015:
I opened at the chocolate store today ANOTHER old couple came in and tipped the college fund jar. They then proceeded to ask where I went and what were my goals and plans for my life. I explained and told them all that I had on my plate to answer their questions and they were so impressed that they tipped me an extra $5 on top of the $2 they had given previous conversation. They told me that they believed in me, and even thought we are strangers, they could tell that I would go far. When they left, I cried. I have always had my family's support and belief in me, telling me that I can reach anything I set myself to. But they have had the time to get to know me, to see what I've achieved and failed at, and they still believe in me. But these were strangers! They only had the chance to see the passion in my eyes and the story of my hopes and they were dead set on believing in me! So yeah, I cried. I was overjoyed! :')

Gave the twins their lessons. I think we actually made headway today, so I'm very happy with the sign that I'm actually getting in their head and we're moving forward. :)

Class was...long. And interesting. So much conversation on architecture! And I gave my professor my business cards as he had asked. However, I was a little bummed when he told me that the song I wrote (the one I wrote after his class because he inspired me) was similar to a Randy Newman song. I looked up the song he thought it was and it sounded nothing similar. So either he told me the wrong song (or I searched the wrong song) or maybe I just have something similar to whatever the song is that Randy Newman has. Hopefully it's the latter. I mean, I have only heard the one song by Newman, and it's the song that's in ToyStory. When I wrote the piece, I simply sat there at the piano, played what came to mind, recorded it, and voila! All in one sitting.

Meep.

Well tomorrow is my day off!!!!!!!!! But there is lots to do, lots to do, people to see, and more people to see. But at least I don't have any work. :) And I have friends. Woohoo!


Alright. No netflix tonight, sorry Lorelei and Rory.

Bonnenuit! 23:09.

First time for everything, good thing I'm lucky!

24 Saturday 2015:

• Gave a vocal lesson to one of my awesome students!
• Worked at the chocolate store directly after that and I worked until closing.
• Some friends were supposed to show up at my apartment for a "House-Warming" shindig; small, but a shindig all the same. No one but Johnny showed up, unfortunately.
• Fortunately, a mutual friend of ours was having a party just down the road, so we went there instead.
• Unfortunately, I agreed to play rage-cage, drank one of the cups mixed with beer and vodka, then decided "Sure, I'll smoke a little..", got cross, got SICK for the first time, and fell asleep safely in my friend's bed where no one would bother me and I was looked after.
• I've always, ALWAYS been on the flip side of that situation: I'm usually always the person to take care of others. But this time I was on the opposite end of the deal. It was so embarrassing yet not a big deal at all. I'm glad I had good friends with me. :)
• Fell asleep thinking about someone in particular, and I'm pretttty sure I said their name as I was trying to fall asleep. Reality hit a while ago that we can be nothing but friends...But I still miss this person, and I'll be seeing this person in 3 weeks! I'm excited, but I'm scared of what will be said.

25 Sunday 2015:

• Woke up and raced home.
• Walked into my bathroom to find the ants had found Vanilla's food bowl in my shower. SO, while still shaky and exhausted, I quickly cleaned that up.
• Showered.
• Slept for about half an hour before having to leave to go to a meeting at the chocolate store.
• Came home after the meeting and slept for 3 and a half hours before leaving again to head back to the chocolate store for my shift. I closed again; this time by myself.
• Once I was finished up, I met up with Dylan to go to Yellow Deli, because, honestly, I haven't been there in TOO long and I missed it so damn much!
• Unfortunately, they no longer make the master blend to where it can be made with other milks. :'( So I had to try out some other flavor and I ended up REALLY not liking it. :(
• Other than the sad drink decision...I had a lovely evening and got to know Dylan better and vice versa.
• I was way to exhausted after putting my laundry away to play piano OR to watch GG OR to blog, so hence: Hi.

26 Monday 2015:

• Between 8-something and 11:30, I was sleeping on and off, but I eventually got up and officially woke up at 11:30.
• Scrammed to my lesson in Rancho Santa Fe.
• Was late to my Psych class. (Which was bad because she is anal about no one ever being late for any reason! [I mean, I can't say I don't understand, it just sucked because today was a day..plus it rained.]
• Learned nothing new in my psych class except the notes I took on the reading could have included a little more than I took.
• Raced back south to Cardiff for 2 other lessons.
• Drove home. Made GF cheesy pasta with bacon.
• Current and present.

I need sleep now. I just finished eating. I nap now.

Guilty

So I'm still awake and I'm on episode 4 or 5 of the evening.

Vanilla is getting upset that I keep waking her up....awk....When you're cat steps in...

Okay, as soon as this episode is over...

Weird thing is, I had 0 caffeine! I should be overly exhausted!

Oh well.

3:02.

Still only today? Plus it's as cold inside as it is out.

I feel like I'm sitting outside on my patio, curled up in blankets that only keep me warm on a shallow level.

Every night when I sign on to post, I think back trying to remember the start if my day and I find myself asking myself: Was that today?? It feels like it's been 2 days, not 1!

I got 95% of my room done today. All that's left are some little clutter-type things to find a home.

I also got my new song "Old Man" uploaded! A link can be found in my previous post.

(Side note: I just check the temperature in my room. Yeah, it's only 39 DEGREES! Sorry, but heater gotta turn on! I mean I have 5 layers on top of me wearing fuzzy pjs...:c)

I got a lot of errands done today on my day off. Bought a welcome mat and a clock and shirts for the chocolate store (Finally!)...

Update on buying the pet door: YEAH! HAVE TO BUY IT ONLINE! Meep.

I guess the most frustrating thing of today was I had to cancel my debit card and request a new one in the mail. So until I get a new one in the mail in about a week or two, I'mma have to be allllll cash...Which is something I never carry. Luckily, I bought everything I needed, so I only have to worry about gas. :) Time to lay low with the moneys for a while.

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Okay, so there's this thing about me where....unless I have to do something later on that day, I don't want to get dressed simply to wear clothes if I'm not going anywhere because I'd just be putting clothes on to sit there and then take them off: They aren't dirty! I basically just tried them on! Nah, so and then usually, I don't even GET dressed until about a half-hour to an hour before I need to leave because..well..That's just who I am. I love my birthday suit. Of course, I have a robe to put on when the roomie is home or I'm walking around the apartment..derp; common courtesy.

Yeah, so heater time and then ONE episode, ONE...One....only ONE episode of GG.

One.

Got it.

Hopefully.

Nighty-night! :) 23:25.

As Promised:

Old Man
https://soundcloud.com/underthemoonlitdrops/old-man

And I sent it to the professor that inspired it. :)

15:54.