Song: The Scientist -- Coldplay

January Creative Every Day Project: Past, Present, & Future

“What is life? It is the flash of a firefly in the night. It is the breath of a buffalo in the wintertime. It is the little shadow which runs across the grass and loses itself in the Sunset.”

“When you get home at 10:30pm and look up to see your GINORMOUS "pet" spider in its usual place on its web and, it isn't there.
So you take a closer to look to see if it's in its sleeping corner--it isn't.
Running up the rest of the way of your stairs, you start freaking out about "WHERE THE F IS THE SPIDER THAT IS AS BIG AS MY PALM?!" only to find it sitting there, crouching, all the way right in front of your door, like a dog patiently waiting for its owner to let it inside.
Using the handy-dandy glass cup that you had fortunately left in your car to place over the spider and gently move it over to the side so it would not be knocked over by your dad and sister as they leave in the morning.

TOMORROW: My challenge will be 'How to return this GIANT spider back to his web without dropping it on you and getting bitten"

Wish me luck!”

When you play the Penis game in public with your friend over Snapchat....

 

“I will always fight for what I love and for what I believe in, and I know at times (several, in fact) I have and will seem overbearing or that I'm over-doing it, or that I am simply dramatic or hysterical, but..

I only mean well, and I only mean to express how much I care because I feel not enough people know who are actually there for them. I want those I love and care about to know that I am actually there for them, always and noooo matter what.”

 

“I need to lose myself for a night; go do something outrageous, crazy, insane, and fun. I need to let go of everything that is weighing me down and stressing me out. I need to breathe. I need everything to be right, not for those around me, but for me; once in my life, I need to do only what is good for me. I can't make everyone happy and that's okay, but I have the power to make myself happy and I need to take hold of what I have and run with it. 

I have been gifted with so, so much, and I have so much to be thankful and grateful for, truly! I have Shelby Adkins, my twin, who finally came into my life when we needed each other most, and I know we will ALWAYS have each other, no matter how far away we may seem from each other. I have Kaylin Chapman who will always be the sister and best friend that has my back, my feet, and my hand in hers, and is there for me when I truly, desperately need it. Sydney Grey, who is my best friend since we met 7 years ago, and no matter WHAT, always has my back, my front, my car, my clothes, and I know that I can always turn to her, always, for even the silliest of S.O.S's. Lauren Adams is the friend that inspires me to be better, to be more than I am, to do great things, to imagine and dream, to dare, to try new things and return to the old, to love tea more than I ever had before, and to act the way I want to and be who I want to be, no matter who, what, when, where, why, or how, and I love her dearest, from near to far, no matter where we are in the world. Jamie Dee Hart will always hold a safe spot in my heart, because she is one of the people in the world that truly know me better than myself; she was also the first person to ever stand up for me within seconds before I could do it myself; "Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you're wrong" from #DropsofJupiter is how she is to me because I know that after, she'll straight up tell me I was wrong, she'll straight up tell me the cold hard truth, and she'll save me time, and time again. Desi McCarthy-Admire and I reach on such a grounded, spiritual level, that only she and I can take a random field in the middle of the night and make it spectacular and amazing; she has given me oh so very, very much: clothes, her bed, the warmth from her family, food from her plate (and if not, she would insist* on always buying me something to eat, always); I love her so much. My grandmother, Cathy Ozbun, who I have such a strong bond with and I love her with all of my heart and soul, and even though I see her and my grandfather at least once a month, it isn't nearly enough, not nearly; she and my grandfather are so loving and thoughtful and have done so much for me and I cannot thank them enough or show enough appreciation. My step-half-aunt-in-law Timmie Ballard, who came into my life Easter of 2011, and has been nothing but a dreamer with hopes and high sights and a confidence that I strive to have; she has gifted me with so, so much that I truly have not the faintest of clues how to show her my gratitude. Amber, you are more than a previous employer, more than a friend; with so much warmth and sunshine escaping every smile, every hug, every laugh that jingles with such a pureness, I am always found in awe; you are family to me, truly you are, and your wisdom has guided me to my own concluding thoughts and inspirations to where there is no comparison. Christy Kellerman Wilkerson gave me life when my accidental beginning could have turned into a nothingness, and is the best mother that she can be and I love her truly, deeply, and so, so much. Ray Wilkerson raised me and my sister, and worked extremely hard for so long, that I'm not sure he knows how to truly relax and appreciate himself; but he is so smart, truly caring deep down, and I love that he's my dad because I wouldn't be who I am today without him. 

I have so much family, so many true friends, that even through the hardest of times, I know I am not alone, not for one hour of any day.

And even with all that I have, I am human. I know I will not have a perfect life, not even close, and with all that I do have, with all of these good things, there are still the 'not-so-good' things that I need to focus on, to fix, to reach past, and to learn from.

We all learn something in the end of each lesson.

But sometimes, you are allowed to take a second for yourself, and only you, and breathe for what feels like an infinite amount of time.”

 

“The name given for the January Moon is, Wolf Moon, this is when shedding and cleansing takes place, the old year is released and the energy of the New Year is beginning. This is a time for releasing yourself from the past and starting anew. 

So, the Wolf Moon is followed by the Black Moon this January and will be gone before the Ice Moon in February.

 

The #BlackMoon lands on a Thursday:

THURSDAY
The energies of this day are conducive to all matters spiritual, the occult, psychic work, and connection with matters legal, and for paying attention to finances or organizing your finances. This day is ruled by the planet Jupiter.”

 

“Met Emily Alyn Lind from #Revenge today at #SixFlags #MagicMountain. She was adorable and sweet. We were in line for the Drop of Doom; SUCH A FUN RIDE!”

“Johnathan Juliano · Jan 3

Alone with her

To be alone is not so tragic,
to be alone, and yet at peace is magic
but oh to be alone with you
That my love is magic meant for two,
For in this life are many troubles,
we both have more than just a few
but when I see the love that lies behind your eyes
My troubles fade from view
And my world is born anew.”

“A psychologist walked around a room while teaching stress management to an audience. As she raised a glass of water, everyone expected they’d be asked the “half empty or half full” question. Instead, with a smile on her face, she inquired: “How heavy is this glass of water?”

Answers called out ranged from 8 oz. to 20 oz.

She replied, “The absolute weight doesn’t matter. It depends on how long I hold it. If I hold it for a minute, it’s not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I’ll have an ache in my arm. If I hold it for a day, my arm will feel numb and paralyzed. In each case, the weight of the glass doesn't change, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes.”

She continued, “The stresses and worries in life are like that glass of water. Think about them for a while and nothing happens. Think about them a bit longer and they begin to hurt. And if you think about them all day long, you will feel paralyzed – incapable of doing anything.”

Remember to put the glass down.”